It's been ages since the last time I posted anything here! Good news; I'm back!, Bad news; I might not have time nor the courage to simply tell you every single thing on my life in detail with this short post that I'm writing now. But I can tell you one thing that I've learned after I finished my exchange year, after I am back here at home, that life goes on.
That means, no matter what you've done or what you haven't done, time doesn't wait for you. Life goes on. So you better spend all the time you got for the things that you will never regret and try to make fast decisions in life.
Maybe this is too much for a 17 year old girl to write this kind of dramatic thing. I am just an ordinary girl but I have learned a lot in the past year.
When I was in France, I learned to not be dependent on anyone. I learned to depend on myself. Because I know that no matter the number of friends you've got in life, in the end you'd be surviving by yourself and the one that you know the best yet you'll care the most is yourself and you also are going to care and pay attention to others but you won't take care of the rest. You are alone in this world. That doesn't mean that you don't have any friend in this world but in the end you should know how to depend on yourself.
I also learned that you should just seize the day and not give a dang of anything else. Doesn't mean you should go berserk YOLO mode all the way and do stupid things but I've read a quote somewhere that says "In the end of your life, you won't regret all the things that you've done, you'll regret all the things that you haven't done."
Amongst all the things that I've learned, those two are the ones that popped out of my mind immediately. Then I went back to Indonesia. As soon as I arrived I saw my twin sister who was waiting for me and talking on the phone. Sure it was the longest plane I've ever took (also when I was heading to France but we were a lot so it felt so fast) but then I met this guy who sat next to me and in the end God-knows-how but we became friends and talked a lot.
When I arrived, it was right before Aidul Fitri 1436H. So we were in Jakarta (not my city, the capital) and visited out family also for me, making easy money by that (in Christmas you get cadeaux, in Aidul Fitri you get money!) and a week later, school started. So I didn't really have the time to pay attention of all the sorrow of leaving instead, I was busy preparing for another school year.
Everything happened really fast. Sometimes, the days when I was in France feel like dreams. The feeling is just so real but not real enough to be true. Then the bad news came up to me. One of my closest cousins passed away in August. That made me even busier and not having any will of doing productive thing. I know it wasn't an excuse because I worked perfectly normal but I just couldn't. I could go on with the sadness I had but it was so painful to see the tears that came out from the eyes of my mother. But then we let go. Again. Life goes on. It won't wait for you no matter what happen. So don't let anything stops you. So we moved on. We simply let that thing be in our memory. All the good things we have about her in our mind.
Then I adjusted to an Indonesian school life easily. Of course the first time was kinda hard to readapting to uniforms and heavy books, and not being able to use even a tad bit of make up to school but it was okay. It went really well. I got new friends who, at first, addressed me as a senior but now they addressed me normally as one of their classmates. I had to catch up with every thing. New education system here in Indonesia that changes once every 5 years which makes my head aching but that was okay. It all went normally and good.
That is simply the update from me, for now. And gosh wow! I didn't think I've typed that much but well voila! I'll post even more sometime soon. But I won't promise because it won't do no good. But I'll try as hard as I can to find the time to write here!
XO,
Bulan Iskandar
That means, no matter what you've done or what you haven't done, time doesn't wait for you. Life goes on. So you better spend all the time you got for the things that you will never regret and try to make fast decisions in life.
Maybe this is too much for a 17 year old girl to write this kind of dramatic thing. I am just an ordinary girl but I have learned a lot in the past year.
When I was in France, I learned to not be dependent on anyone. I learned to depend on myself. Because I know that no matter the number of friends you've got in life, in the end you'd be surviving by yourself and the one that you know the best yet you'll care the most is yourself and you also are going to care and pay attention to others but you won't take care of the rest. You are alone in this world. That doesn't mean that you don't have any friend in this world but in the end you should know how to depend on yourself.
I also learned that you should just seize the day and not give a dang of anything else. Doesn't mean you should go berserk YOLO mode all the way and do stupid things but I've read a quote somewhere that says "In the end of your life, you won't regret all the things that you've done, you'll regret all the things that you haven't done."
Amongst all the things that I've learned, those two are the ones that popped out of my mind immediately. Then I went back to Indonesia. As soon as I arrived I saw my twin sister who was waiting for me and talking on the phone. Sure it was the longest plane I've ever took (also when I was heading to France but we were a lot so it felt so fast) but then I met this guy who sat next to me and in the end God-knows-how but we became friends and talked a lot.
When I arrived, it was right before Aidul Fitri 1436H. So we were in Jakarta (not my city, the capital) and visited out family also for me, making easy money by that (in Christmas you get cadeaux, in Aidul Fitri you get money!) and a week later, school started. So I didn't really have the time to pay attention of all the sorrow of leaving instead, I was busy preparing for another school year.
Everything happened really fast. Sometimes, the days when I was in France feel like dreams. The feeling is just so real but not real enough to be true. Then the bad news came up to me. One of my closest cousins passed away in August. That made me even busier and not having any will of doing productive thing. I know it wasn't an excuse because I worked perfectly normal but I just couldn't. I could go on with the sadness I had but it was so painful to see the tears that came out from the eyes of my mother. But then we let go. Again. Life goes on. It won't wait for you no matter what happen. So don't let anything stops you. So we moved on. We simply let that thing be in our memory. All the good things we have about her in our mind.
Then I adjusted to an Indonesian school life easily. Of course the first time was kinda hard to readapting to uniforms and heavy books, and not being able to use even a tad bit of make up to school but it was okay. It went really well. I got new friends who, at first, addressed me as a senior but now they addressed me normally as one of their classmates. I had to catch up with every thing. New education system here in Indonesia that changes once every 5 years which makes my head aching but that was okay. It all went normally and good.
That is simply the update from me, for now. And gosh wow! I didn't think I've typed that much but well voila! I'll post even more sometime soon. But I won't promise because it won't do no good. But I'll try as hard as I can to find the time to write here!
XO,
Bulan Iskandar